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I only wish for him to be near human — Poems by Sanika Dhole


Poems by Sanika Dhole

An Appeal


He wants this building of marble to be unimportant

He thinks symbols to be too dull

I think of this marble, however, as a blatant declaration

Of love that is beyond immortal.

He blames the ruinous kings

He makes a case for the invisible stains of blood

I rather wish for the man to think of those

Who spilled blood here believing that they are loved.

He thinks one is too naive to see that

This love is spitting on the poor

One hopes for him to realise the parts of life

That have roots in only devotion, pure.

His love wishes not to be demeaned by this monument,

I only wish for him to be near human.



Nausea


Everything means nothing, that is obvious to you

Yet you stop and smell flowers at every turn

Were they put there for you to enjoy, you wonder

You take a step back, horrified that you should think so.

You feel uneasy, you enjoy it.

Then you walk on and find the world empty again, for you.


But you see flowers yet again.

They are the same, unyielding, promising, soft.

No I will not smell them! you say.

Are you making a choice to betray your true self?

You walk on without smelling them.

You feel uneasy again, you enjoy it again.


What are you supposed to do with beautiful flowers

In an empty world?

If your choices are distinctly different, why do they

Make you feel the same?



Multi-Ownership


I open up the door to the room

And I start taking things out and I am fast

Drawers are opening I am flinging shit everywhere

I do not care about messes

I am trying to find nothing

I am simply creating messes

I go fast until I have stripped the cupboards bare

You think I will put things back in the right order

That the cupboards will have neatly folded stuff in them

No creases no crinkles no loud noises

Gentle opening and shutting of cabinets

And I do that for some

But I am sideways for now

I am put sideways in my mind

Now what is straight what is crooked

I made me so I cannot tell the difference

There is no room to step anywhere

I am standing on a tower of things

Some of which I put back

But I cannot be expected to put things back

as fast as I take them out

I start wading through the things

But cannot continue wading

Too many things

Too much wading not enough strength

I sit down on the tower of things

I heave I pant I am not fit for this

I want to exit the room and leave and never come back

Is that too much to ask for, things? Things! I said

What a waste of space I am said

to say

One thought at a time one word after another please

I have stopped heaving I wade again not to make it very far 

and I sit down and pant again and heave again I am unfit again

To me said I is told I cannot jump and exit this room whenever I want.


 

About the Poet:


Sanika Dhole is an undergraduate student studying English Literature in Mumbai, India. She has a specific interest in absurdist and existentialist literature and poetry, with those being the main themes in her writing.

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