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Saying goodbye and other poems by Jyotish Gopinathan


Poems by Jyotish Gopinathan

Landslide

 

The water

drove stakes deep

into the sogged heart. 

 

The torrent 

that surfed the crest 

of the landslide

 

imprinted leaf tattoos 

on mud-soaked faces.

With the blood 

 

that congealed, right

where the hill

kissed them.

 

Here is what 

we could bury

in the pantheon

 

that the gods forsake.

A hill that melted away,

The uneasy ferment

 

of the shifting earth 

that smothered the night.

The silence, 

 

and the frenzy

of noises that exploded

right after,

 

The deluge that egged

the calamity on-

tedious newscasters 

 

prowling for bravery

amidst numbing misery.

The torn hydra heads

 

that tumbled down 

with the rocks, as big

as whole temples.

 

To burial places inside us

where, in the end,

all waves must crash.

 


The rebellion of bald heads

 

There was a glint of steel

I thought, in her gaze. 

Towering from the billboard, 

she clenched a tight fist 

around the braided hair. 

 

The tagline seemed loud,

embellishing the fortune

of good health, the virtues

of the hair tonic 

they pitched to sell.

 

I wondered whether it was 

a wig that she wore,

to the shoot,

Was she in remission, long hair

grown back?

 

I remembered the movie scene 

where her scarf blows off

and stubble reveals on

the scalp, a window 

flung open to the storm.

 

And I remember thinking

how vivid that frame was,

and just how partial I was 

to Sinead O Connor 

and the rebellion of bald heads.

 

 

Saying goodbye 


A gawky child-man I see waking in me, 

As we watch you pack

the last of the dog-eared books,

and the packet of new razor blades,

and sit and brood over trifles, like 

the validity stamp on the document

that will take you away.

 

Only yesterday we sat hunched together

at a meeting. And snickered

together after, at that pretentious ass

spinning the yarn about stoic acceptance,

at words that came untethered

from the aphorisms that he prescribed,

the balm he said would soothe.

 

Find a tepid one for the word that scalds us!

How about silence, I thought,

instead of farewell, for the absence,

that will flood me after,

How about sinking instead of

silence, for the absence of laughter,

that you pack, to take away with you.

 

 

Pretend lives


Ladybug, a pretty beetle pinned

to a chart, the other ones,

for which our daughter did not

find a name, pictures

in a scrapbook and a jar

she liked to hold up, squint

against the light, spy the fur

on the legs of our spider.

 

The game of pretend-lives

that we spun sometimes.

A tap on the shoulder 

with her mother’s belt 

and now she is a moth 

to the dancing flame,

a snoring sloth bear,

a swooning Cinderella.

 

A world of changelings-

not the one from where

children would vanish,

leave behind shells cast

in the evil fairy’s spells.

A different weave of magic 

here, in the shapes

she transformed with glee.

 

She liked me to bathe

in pixie dust, and the faint aroma

of kindling fire in old hearths,

warm marshmallows, and

the glow of the sated that would

never ebb in her tender veins.

A glow they could not blot out

from the curves of her face.

 

If I could transform now, I wish

it would be into a winged elephant,

flapping against her sky that stayed

purple back then, and how I wish

I would not be that fool who flew

too close to her sun again

and scorched his flying wings.

 


 

About the poet:


Jyotish Gopinathan is a Nephrologist, clinician-educator, postgraduate teacher and researcher. Currently residing in Kozhikode, Kerala, he has lived and trained in medicine in Mumbai and Toronto. He has a book of poems to his credit: The Coppiced House

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